Clouded Hell is .99 CENTS

    I survive on avoidance. Physical pain to avoid the mental. Disposable flesh to avoid relationships. Work to avoid attachment. My club became my empire of avoidance. Inside the ring millions are won and lost. The fight is confined to breaths, actions and reactions, fists and pain. Rules don’t exist. Only my opponent exists. […]

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Oasis is coming July 18th

I worshiped at the altar of pain, surviving on avoidance, physical to avoid the mental, anything to forget what I’d lost. When Remi walked through the door, I felt like I’d paid my price for the passage through hell and been granted a taste of Eden. Remi was my oasis and I was going to […]

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Space Between Us

I didn’t get to say goodbye. I’ll never really get to say goodbye. We have these rituals we’ve created as humans to help with death but none of them have eased the pain. 15 years ago today I didn’t know the damage a single moment could do and the scars it would cause I’m sure […]

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Happiness is a Process

Happiness is a process. A fucked up, tangled, mixed up process. There isn’t a straight line to it either. And when you have it, it’s as easy to lose as it was to find. Not only is it all those things, but it’s also a choice. I’ve had to make a choice to be happy. […]

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